Ok so basically I'm 19 and I suffer from anxiety and severe depression, and since my Mum died in August I have become severely necrophobic, the fear of death disrupts my everyday life.
Now this website has set my mind at ease a lot, but everytime someone mentions the 2012 doomsday my heart skips a beat and I'm back to square one, I don't want to talk to my friends or family about it in case they laugh at me or in case I scare them too.
Everytime I hear an aeroplane I become convinced it's a black hole or an meteor, and everytime the weather gets a little extreme (for example it has been very windy in the U.K. recently) I attribute that to the end of the world. Also recently the floods in Australia and Brazil have made me think that 2012 is real.
Has anyone got any tips on how I can manage this?
I now it sounds stupid because I'm necrophobic, but I've even contemplated suicide, because I feel a quick controlled death would be less horrific than witnessing the end of the world.