(account deleted) 20 Dec 2012 05:48
Hi! I was expecting to do a "post-mortem" about my 2012 thoughts AFTER the event came and gone. But with the amount of people suffering fear, I figure I may as well give you this already! It's silly and lighthearted, at least I think it is. But anyways, I did indeed have a dream about 2012, one year ago.
Actually, to be fair, I had two dreams about 2012, a few months apart. Both of them have a weird overtone, it's Dec 21 2012 and I'm out on vacation with my family. And we're having fun.
And then Dec 22 2012 comes, and we continue to have fun. Dec 23 passes, than Dec 24, and then suddenly it's Dec 25 and nothing has happened, other than lots of trips to a beach, and fun over at a hotel or someone's house or something.
This is extremely unlike I was expecting roughly a year ago. There was that uncertain aspect of things. I was feeling good, survived Camping's supposed Rapture and listened to Still Alive all day. 'Twas fun, though Still Alive, as charming as it is, gets a bit annoying after a while. That was something I learned that day. And then the second date, I didn't even see it coming. Somehow though I was expecting to be in a massive wreck about this whole 2012 crap. I didn't think I would be able to sleep a week in advance. Either that, or I was kind of expecting to hole up in my room, put headphones on, and just play Still Alive all day. Or sleep all day and not have to deal with whatever supposed event was supposed to happen.
But that wasn't the case. It's 11:30 at night (I'm up at 11:30 not because of sleeping issues in the sense that I can't sleep, but because a friend and I kinda broke my sleep schedule due to too many late night games of Portal II), on Dec 19th. Dec 20th will come soon, and I'm feeling nothing. Ok, so I'm feeling lots of different things as I break free of depression, but that is dealing with my personal life rather than 2012. But I'm not having troubles sleeping because of Dec 21th, and soon enough it will be the 22nd, and then the 23rd, and then all their potential dates have been exhausted and lots of excuses get thrown about. Also, I hear they're expecting a little snow on the 21st! That will be nice, there hasn't been a lot of snow here. I'd blame global warming, but this is actually a lot more common 'round this part than I tend to think. I used to come here a lot, check on what all the people looking for rumors to destroy were up to, see how people were getting over their fears, and then suddenly a lot more postings happened and I was having trouble keeping up and I stopped thinking about 2012 as much and I stopped coming here. And really, just like Camping's second date, I forgot that the 21st was coming up entirely! (And I did the same with christmas, which was a bit of a problem, heh)
Things feel good right now. I'm talking to people about my depression, the details of which are not relevant here because they don't concern 2012. My sister's coming over to visit, and we'll be heading down to Florida to visit my other sister after Christmas happens, and it will be great because I wanted to take a trip over to Florida for quite a while now. I'm probably going to wrap up Dec 21, 2012 with some friends. My friend's gotten into metal detecting lately, and it's a great timesink if you don't feel like doing anything remotely practical. And then, I'm having dreams where I survive 2012. I was expecting nightmares where I died in a firey rage! But no, everything has been about surviving and being with people. And really, I don't have too much fear about man-made disasters. The people behind actual dangerous military weapons have too much responsibility to use them, and while someone here and there might try to attack a place with a gun or something, I don't really feel anyone will want to do so (has this even happened before), and I won't even be going out anyways, except maybe to my friend's house.
As a spare time project in 2013, I might try to make a proper database out of the A Brief History of The Apocalypse and then create a little applet in which people can enter their birthdate, or the birthdates and death dates of someone else and scan how many predicted doomsdays they've survived. If someone's already done this, I'd like to see!
So yeah, if you've got the fears still in you, just remind yourself how illogical they are. Don't give those thoughts in your head the chance to shine, and do something to entertain yourself! I've been mining and then building and walling villages in Minecraft, and talking to people to make me feel better. And don't worry about the "what ifs," they'll get you nowhere fast.
(account deleted), 20 Dec 2012 05:48