|A young woman describes the effect that the 2012 doomsday rumors on had on her niece.|
Editor's Note: The following story is true. Only the names have been changed.
Is it worth it?
September 11, 2009
My name is Nika1, I'm 18 and I live in the U.S. with my mother.
I babysit my niece, Kat2, a lot because my sister is usually at work and when she isn't at work, she's 'living life', I suppose.
Kat, who is only eight, is special in a lot of ways, she loves to run around and she loves to play, she's very active and quite creative for her age, she's never had any problems in school and to be honest, there are times that I feel as if she's my own, rather than my sister's, daughter.
It had begun six months ago, I was cleaning up a little and preparing myself for bed as well as encouraging myself that the next day would be a good day, I have a habit of doing so..
I was babysitting my niece that night, she was surfing the channels on the television as she usually does before it's her bedtime, and usually there are cartoons and things of the sort that she likes to watch but she had stopped on The History channel where they were talking about apocalyptic theories and such and the main focus was the year 2012, the Mayan calendar, Nostradamus and so forth.
When I had checked on her before I went to bed, she seemed normal and so I tucked her in and then I went to bed, the next morning she was depressed, she didn't want to eat breakfast, she just seemed so gloomy and unhappy, it wasn't until later in the day that I had learned of what she had seen on television and from there, things had only gotten worse.
Over the weeks she had shown signs of severe depression, she would ask things like "Why would God do such a thing"— I'm not going to lie, she had asked questions that even I didn't know how to answer, I didn't know what to say, I didn't know what to do.
She had begun to slowly slip into a dangerous state of depression, she wouldn't eat, she wouldn't drink anything, over the course of six months she had spontaneously cried and sobbed uncontrollably, she was inconsolable.
There were times that she had spoken of suicide or ending it before the time of 2012 had come and this is coming from an eight year old…
One of the nights that I remember the most is the night that she had come into my bedroom.
The day before the night was just like any other day, she was upset the entire day, crying and sobbing, she didn't want to eat or drink, later that night she had finally fallen asleep and I was getting ready for bed myself and then she came into my bedroom and I gave her a strange look because I had thought that she was still asleep and with out saying anything she just completely broke down and she came up to me and put her arms around my waist and said "I don't want to die"— You must remember that I'm only eighteen, even someone in their 30s would be stumped. I didn't know what to say so I just sat down and I pulled her into my arms and held her and said the only thing that I knew to say which was "I'll never let anything happen to you"— She had cried inconsolably and she was shaking for nearly two hours before she had finally cried herself to sleep and by the time that she fell asleep, even I was crying because I just didn't know what to do.
My sister as well as the rest of our family had decided that it may be best to seek professional help i.e; mental therapy.
The therapy failed as she really wouldn't talk to them, when they would tell her that 2012 isn't the end and that the end is only a beginning which may have only made things worse, she wouldn't accept it because she had truly believed the things that the people on TV had said.
A month later, things still hadn't improved, in fact they had gotten worse.
Her daily fears had turned into nightmares, she would wake up in the middle of the night breaking down and crying, she would go days with out sleep. She had begun to have day-terrors as well, she would be sitting in school or even at a friends and she would suddenly break down. There were times that she would cry so much that she would cause herself to vomit, her paranoia had begun to effect her physical health as well as her mental health, within just a couple of weeks she weighed 10 pounds less than her normal weight.
As the days, weeks and even months went by, there was no change, even the mere mention of "2012" and in some cases even seeing the Number "12" would cause her to break down. Our family is a good family, I will never say that they're bad but they, just like myself didn't know what to do.
It was then that I had decided to take this issue into my own hands, I didn't know where to start so I decided to start researching and advancing my knowledge of the Maya and Nostradamus as well as other cultures, I had learned a lot.
Recently (as in almost a month ago) I had found this website and a couple of other websites that used not only hard evidence but common sense and opinions/facts from people with high-intelligence in fields of astronomy, chemistry and so forth and it wasn't until I found these websites that I finally felt that I had found a way to comfort my niece.
Before rolling up to my computer in my chair with my niece close at my side, I was a bit unsure, I was afraid that she wouldn't accept the evidence of these people as well.. But I had run out of options and I didn't know where else to turn.
As I read to her and and explained some of the things that they were saying in a way that she as well could understand, I noticed a small change, it wasn't much but it was a change or a very faint sigh of relief and I felt that perhaps these people could really help.
After about a week of daily visits to the computer with my niece poking her head up to look at the screen and sometimes even sitting in my lap, she had finally started to calm down and accept what the people from 2012hoax and the few other places were saying although we spent most of our time on the 2012hoax page.
Literally six months of breaking down, screaming, nightmares and refusing to eat or drink, things had finally begun to take a turn for the better.
Still, there are nightmares but they are less frequent, she still cries but it isn't as often nor as bad as it were before, she's gradually pulling out of this emotional slump that she had fallen into after seeing the documentary.
So, really, I must ask— Is doing this to an eight year old girl really worth it? Is the money and scams and hoaxes really so precious that you must terrify someone so horribly?
For those who take part in 2012hoax.org— Thank you for giving my niece her life back and if you really think about it, your website, your community may have very well saved her life.